Rite of Passage

Just after a dinner with a bunch of friends. And I was totally shocked about their ages, was difficult to believe that how the number is growing but is not growing compatible with the appearance!!! Presumably, they all must be investing a lot in anti aging product and supplement, or they have a young heart to keep the youthfullness.

From that, a flash in my mind that this is 2010, which is the last year we still eligible to be call 20+. Next year onward, we will officially to be call 30 years old aunties and uncles. I was shocked. I do not feel like being 30 yet, and I have only one year left from that. Gosh...

Anyhow, no matter how, I think I still have to accept it, which I wish we all can enjoy the youthfullness as we can... at least for another year... haha. cheers...

Merry X'mas and Happy New Year

Dear RenZha,

I will miss you guys for this season, however, I will not able to make it this year to spend time with you all for this lovely season. There are too much commitment in my hand now which I am not able to let go easily. I know that I'd missed a lot with you all, in fact too much to be as part of RZ family.

Jamy, I need to apologise on this. As I promised you before, I will attend your wedding and celebrate it with you and other fellows. But I could not keep my promise, with giving an excuse on work. I am truly sorry.

I've been really busy on work lately. Too much to be say. Until I totally ignord about my ownself. Particular my health. I was admitted in the hospital for 2 days in the end of November for severe stomach pain. End up with 3 injections for pain killer, an OGDS scopy and colonoscopy just to rule out the cause of the pain. Eventually, found out that was nothing from the scope and was precribed on Evening Primrose Oil. Haha. Anyway, I am fine now, but will follow up on medication.

It is always a good season to meet up and hang out with you all. I am looking forward every year of this. Which I miss the laugh and the smile on every of yours. However, this year is just an exceptional, without me. I wish you all enjoy the moment and cherish it and I will be here to share it together with my busy schedule.

Wish RenZha, Merry Christmas and a very Happy New Year. Cheers...

Edward Cullen

How could there be such handsome guy in this world!? My first saw him was on 27 Nov 2009. Indescribable in word how awesome he was! He extracted me deeply in my first saw! Sharp facial features, nice hair, tough body, deep feeling in love, protective to his love one, etc… He is Edward Cullen – actor in Twilight saga: New Moon :)

At first we thought to watch Ninja Assassin but fully occupied. So then we only decided to watch twilight. We not even know what the story of the movie when we bought the ticket but I knew the first part of the story was hot. I saw a lot of book was sold in popular but I was not extracted until I watch the second part. I think I will own the book soon :)

The story was going quite slow but I didn’t feel bore. I love the story. I wish it could go even slower so that I can see him more but the piggy beside me start feeling bore :D bore may be the story went slow or bore because of me – I keep asking him thousand times: why he is so handsome? why he is so handsome? why he is so handsome?.......

Today we watched the first part (We bought original DVD… haha). Waaalao! Can't breath! He is extremely awesome! Those ah pek like Tom Cruise, Brad Pit, Keane Reeves, Orlando Bloom, etc also no fight!

There is another actor (look like Indiana muscle man) – Jacob also doing a good part. He is giving his true love & protections to his love one despite of reciprocate. So romantic!

You must watch these movies – both first and second parts. I can’t tell much, can’t describe how much I admire Edward Cullen. I will be watching the movies repeat and repeat to fight CCT on his secret :p I love the story and Edward Cullen in the story (i love vampire :p)but not the real person of him – Robert Pattinson. No feel when see his real face even though he is still handsome.

I have downloaded the love song in this movie...Damn good! but sadly I cannot share in the blog... I duno how to upload or dun have this function? Administrator! please enhance!

傻渣想说之（三）

大家好，我又回来了。。。
现在的我懒洋洋的躺在软绵绵的单人床上，盖着厚厚的棉被，但还是睡不着，真犯贱！平时躺在家里狭窄的沙发上，又热又吵，反而更会呼噜呼噜的大觉一场。。。这间中让我领悟到很多道理。。。

曾经很向往这样舒适的环境，尤其是很累很烦的时候，就想说如果当下能有张大床，拉上窗帘开着冷气，哗！该有多舒服啊！很多人很多时候都会有如此平凡的想法，比如会说：如果我现在拥有xxx，我就会做什么什么啦。。。如果我现在可以去到哪里哪里，就会怎样怎样。。。如果我是谁谁谁，该有多好啊！！！太多太多如果如果了。。。突然让我想起一首歌：

如果我说爱我没有如果
错过就过你是不是会难过
若"如果"拿来当借口
那是不是有一点弱

如果我说爱我没有如果
真的爱我就放手一搏
还想什么还怕什么
快牵起我的手

其实还蛮有道理的，太多人宁愿坐在那儿空想，也不愿有实际的行动，结果呢？就听天由命咯！但偏偏又在那边怨天忧命，唉！我总相信一份耕耘一份收获的道理，虽然不一定会得到想象中的结果，但我相信那种满足感应该还不错，以或者说是人生的一种历练，对未来肯定有帮助的。

哦！怎么说到另一个道理去了呢？？其实我刚刚想说的是，很多事情在我们还没真正尝试过或体会过时，往往都会想得很美好，然后很向往。。。但事实却往往会事与愿违，然后就会很无奈。。。
但记得，无奈是免不了的，但不要后悔，因为后悔会产生怨恨，会让你很痛苦，会让你失去那其中的美好。比如说，我原先很向往拥有这样的一个周末，以为可以好好大睡一觉，但当我真正身在其中时，我却精神得要命；那又怎样，要后悔花了几百块然后达不到真正的效果吗？不！我只是无奈为什么这么美好的环境，我竟忘了带点零食和饮料，在这边煲电视连续剧，唉！但其实我还是可以利用这么美好的环境来做很多东西，比如写部落，上网咯！至少它可以让我的思绪很平静，还是很舒服的。

爱情也不就是如此。。。暧昧的那种阶段，往往我们都很渴望开花结果，想象它的美好；刚开始的爱情也就是让你真正体会那幸福感觉的时刻；但这种美好会持续多久呢？我不能下定论，但我知道无论如何，不要后悔，不要埋怨，如果你觉得它还是珍贵的，就该懂得如何走下去。

各位姐妹们，坦白说，我真的觉得我们身边的男人都是不错的好男人了，我不知道该如何形容他们的好，但如果你们看到以下的例子，我相信你们也会感恩了。。。
1。我曾告诉过你们我在戏院里遇到那对买错日期戏票的情侣，想起那男人扁着脸，走着他的路不理身后的女友，这种会埋怨女人的男人，真得很鸟人！
2。刚才在check in时也遇到一个脾气超"怪"的男人，在登记处发了脾气之外，还要给脸色那好声好气安慰他的女友，只是房间还没清理好多等一下而已嘛！唉！
所以，我相信这种事情我们还没经历过吧！反而我看是我们这几个脾气超辣的姐妹会对男友做的事，哈。。。好啦好啦！你们没有啦！嘻。。。
好啦！今天就写到这为止，要开始忙了！愿大家有个美好的周末！

最后，愿大家珍惜现在，勇敢创造美好将来！

First Week At Where I Used To Be

Speaking about getting back to Plexus, yes the feeling is great and excited at the beginning, reason being that i have get used to this environment before i left, the colleagues were nice and the environment is definitely better than my previous employment, by many folds. Soon enough, i have found out that there are several issues that i have to battle with, for me to continue to stay..
The first thing would be the repeatitive traveling in between Penang and Butterworth. I know that most of you will say whats the big deal with that as you are doing it all the times, yeah i also know that i shouldn't complain much about this, i just need time to adapt to this culture. Also not forgotten, not to yell and banging horn when facing traffic jam issue. This is just another normal scene that a Penangite should face each and everyday. So embrace it and stop grumbling...fucker..

Secondly, the work load...damn the new tasks is enough to suffocate me. Yes i know that you need resource fast enough to cover back the loss time, and yes i know this is what i get paid for... i even have to flip back the old reference book back in uni, trying to recall as much i can... working life sucks indeed. anyway, life goes on, no matter you like it o not. There were times when things get screwed up and not getting on the right direction you want them to be, but i will make it through, not just merely pass. I will stun you for sure.

As i have said, this posting is mainly for complaining. I know everybody has problem of their own. Please safely disregard this, i am just fulfilling monthly renzha blog submition quota :P

For this transition period, please do not surprise if i am acting abnormal. That is considered normal for me though. just treating that 肥渣is having MANstrual. That's it. Peace out!

LSL tank story...

hihi.... look familiar to this water tank wearing a sexy blue tube?

I was so close to it.... Really really really huge... =P

Red Tuesday

Soon, i will be in Penang again.. Despite a late coming offer, i am overjoyed with it, at least i can be with my very owned island again. After 1 year and 3 months of loneliness in this deserted area, it is time for me to end up this insanity, as a result of a ignorant decision that i had made that particular time frame ago. Ipoh, i thank you for your tranquil environment, assorted kind of chickens, serba-tarak's facility and unforgetable, 15months of Balda absurdity working life.

Before i can really enjoy this pleasant moment, something hampers me, or should i say, someone. I still remember that i tender my resignation on 6 Oct, i purposely stay back and walk towards him with the letter sandwiched in between my notes when nobody was around. After some talk cock sessions and when i am pretty sure that my task was done, i grasped my letter and delivered to him. He was stunned, as expected. His initial response gave a false indication for me, perhaps i wasn't smart enough to realize the disaster that i was about to get sucked in.

Before i walked to him, i knew that this was going to be a long lecturing session, but i never expected that it was going to be a harsh one.

"You came here a year ago, manage well relationship with me, obtain the training opportunity, and when you fully master the skill, you left for higher pay, that's unfair for me"
"You spoil my truth towards you"
"Who ask you to go and take up so many commitment? 自己拿来的！"
"有人傻傻被人利用"

Mapomplek it was my turn to get stunned. I have totally no idea how he made up the speech, but it is excruciating pain listening to this kind of accuses. Yet, i hardly fight back. Maybe i was feeling guilty to the fullest at that time. Or maybe i should think this way: I was his most obedient and helpful follower, this will be his greatest loss of the year. Alright this is self compliment i admit.. :)

Then he asked me where am i heading after Balda..I refuse to talk about this because who knows, he might did some dirty tricks and jeopardize my career. Then again he was mad again. I cant believe that he was this kind of ppl until he shoot me this:

"Penang market very small only...i have connection...Don't let me found out where you work while i have my fren inside"

At that point onwards, the respect that i had for him previously, were all wiped clean. This threatening act has totally gone wrong and now, i just wish to get outa here at the soonest. And for your record, i am the 5th to leave the group within 2 months, and i am damn happy doing it.

Ello bastard, sayonara and yippie kay yay mother fucker. Peace for me and piss for you. I am heading home.